Yesterday I spoke at a local high school to ninth graders. I shared my story to three separate classes and also talked about goal setting. I think it went good. The speeches got better each time I spoke. They also asked a lot of questions which helps me and helps the time to go by faster.
The only thing that I would change next time is not to speak to three one-hour classes in a row. I became very exhausted and I was starting to lose my voice by the last speech. I even had to have my mom talk a couple of times to give myself a break. I am excited for whatever opportunity comes up next.
Jenni
"Any change, any loss, does not make us victims. Others can shake you, surprise you, disappoint you, but they can't prevent you from acting, from taking the situation you're presented with and moving on. No matter where you are in life, no matter what your situation, you can always do something. You always have a choice and the choice can be power."
-Blaine Lee The Power Principle
Saturday, February 28, 2009
Thursday, February 26, 2009
To All My Readers
Right now, I am getting about 35 hits per day of people visiting my blog. That's pretty good considering when I started there were only about 9 per day. The number 35 includes new and returning visitors. For those of you who are new I say "welcome" and for those returning I say "thank you".
I have almost 3000 visitors since October 26, 2008, and that includes people from all over the world. People from countries such as Mexico, Germany, Canada, Norway, Spain, Australia, Netherlands, Brazil, and parts of the United Kingdom are all tuning in to read what I have to say. I'm also getting visitors from all over the United States. I would just like to say keep on reading on and know that I am happy to invite all of you into my life. Thank you for all of your comments and support.
Jenni
I have almost 3000 visitors since October 26, 2008, and that includes people from all over the world. People from countries such as Mexico, Germany, Canada, Norway, Spain, Australia, Netherlands, Brazil, and parts of the United Kingdom are all tuning in to read what I have to say. I'm also getting visitors from all over the United States. I would just like to say keep on reading on and know that I am happy to invite all of you into my life. Thank you for all of your comments and support.
Jenni
Tuesday, February 24, 2009
Life As a Quad II: Sensory and Motor
On Monday I went to an appointment at a clinic with a physical therapist. They did something called sensory testing. By doing this, they can tell how much sensation I have and where throughout my body. I have feeling everywhere but it is more predominant in some places than others. It is hard to explain what I feel and where, so this was just a way that they could measure how much sensation I really have. They only did my lower extremities this time. The physical therapist had me close my eyes and then he took a small poker (it kind of looked like a needle but it bent easily and was not sharp) and touched certain places of my legs. Each time, he asked me if I felt anything and where. There were a lot of inconsistencies with what I said to where he was touching. Most of the time I didn't say anything because I couldn't feel it. When he was doing the testing, I had a few frustrated looks on my face when I didn't get it right. I was feeling disappointed that I didn't have as much feeling as I wanted to.
After a while of using the poker, he started using his hands to touch certain places on my legs. I was able to feel where he was touching. That means that on my legs, I can only feel deep pressure. I kind of knew that but it was nice to actually have a test done. He told me that it is important not to get discouraged and the fact that I have any feeling at all is a good sign. My greatest sensation is on the top of my arms. Hopefully I will be able to do a return appointment at a later time to see if I have gained any more sensation. I have to tell you that it isn't typical for someone with my injury to have sensory or motor.
I am a C1C2 incomplete quadriplegic, with incomplete sensory and motor. I usually just tell people that I am paralyzed from the neck down even though I do have movement below my injury. The reason I tell people that I am paralyzed is because it is just easier that way. It is hard to explain how I move things and specifically how it is possible that I can move things. I basically have to know exactly which muscle or muscles move what. Then I have to pick out the muscles and tighten them to move certain parts. It was a difficult process in the beginning but now that I know all of the muscles and what they do, it is a little easier.
I am able to move all of my toes, five fingers , and my shoulders and I can bend both of my wrists, elbows and knees. I'm also able to tighten the muscles in my stomach and pull myself forward and tighten the muscles in my back to pull myself back. I have attached a video of myself bending my elbow. After my arm gets to 90°, gravity takes over. I'm not able to bring my arm back down.
I will try to post more videos of me moving. If you have any questions for me about this post or want to know something in more detail than what I have described feel free to comment below.
Jenni
After a while of using the poker, he started using his hands to touch certain places on my legs. I was able to feel where he was touching. That means that on my legs, I can only feel deep pressure. I kind of knew that but it was nice to actually have a test done. He told me that it is important not to get discouraged and the fact that I have any feeling at all is a good sign. My greatest sensation is on the top of my arms. Hopefully I will be able to do a return appointment at a later time to see if I have gained any more sensation. I have to tell you that it isn't typical for someone with my injury to have sensory or motor.
I am a C1C2 incomplete quadriplegic, with incomplete sensory and motor. I usually just tell people that I am paralyzed from the neck down even though I do have movement below my injury. The reason I tell people that I am paralyzed is because it is just easier that way. It is hard to explain how I move things and specifically how it is possible that I can move things. I basically have to know exactly which muscle or muscles move what. Then I have to pick out the muscles and tighten them to move certain parts. It was a difficult process in the beginning but now that I know all of the muscles and what they do, it is a little easier.
I am able to move all of my toes, five fingers , and my shoulders and I can bend both of my wrists, elbows and knees. I'm also able to tighten the muscles in my stomach and pull myself forward and tighten the muscles in my back to pull myself back. I have attached a video of myself bending my elbow. After my arm gets to 90°, gravity takes over. I'm not able to bring my arm back down.
I will try to post more videos of me moving. If you have any questions for me about this post or want to know something in more detail than what I have described feel free to comment below.
Jenni
Monday, February 23, 2009
Speaking Engagement
It's kind of ironic that while taking my public speaking class that I would get an opportunity to do a volunteer speaking engagement. This Friday I will be speaking at a local high school to ninth graders. I will be talking to three separate classes about goal setting. I'm not quite sure what I'm going to say yet. I have had to set many goals for myself in last six years and I know I can teach something about that topic.
I hope I will get many more opportunities to speak whether it's volunteering or not. I love to speak! I love being in front of an audience and telling my story and teaching others. It is the best feeling to know that you are doing something either to inspire or help others. That is why I want to become a professional motivational speaker. I already do motivational speaking, but most of it is volunteer. I would like to be well known and asked to speak at many events, schools etc. I will let you know how it went.
Jenni
"Whatever you can do, or dream you can... begin it. Boldness has genius, power and magic in it."
-Johann Wolfgang von Goethe
I hope I will get many more opportunities to speak whether it's volunteering or not. I love to speak! I love being in front of an audience and telling my story and teaching others. It is the best feeling to know that you are doing something either to inspire or help others. That is why I want to become a professional motivational speaker. I already do motivational speaking, but most of it is volunteer. I would like to be well known and asked to speak at many events, schools etc. I will let you know how it went.
Jenni
"Whatever you can do, or dream you can... begin it. Boldness has genius, power and magic in it."
-Johann Wolfgang von Goethe
Thursday, February 19, 2009
Sharing My Story
Hello everyone.
On the way to school today I shared my story with the bus driver. I told him about my accident, talked about my passion of being a motivational speaker, and shared other personal information to him. When I got off the bus to go into the school, he told me that I had been an inspiration to him today. It always feels good to hear those words. When I got inside the door I stopped at a table to look at some pictures of some people who had studied abroad in Italy. What I thought was interesting was that I ended up sharing my story again to the two people sitting behind the table. They were very nice and asked many questions, which I was happy to answer. Before I left, the woman told me thank you for sharing my story and wished me luck. She told me it was nice to hear what I had to say. These moments are why I keep going.
I don't mind sharing my story with others. Actually, I quite enjoy answering any questions they have to ask even if they're personal and hearing their comments and reactions. I would rather have people ask questions than stare and wonder. One of my goals in life is to inspire as many people as possible. For all of you regular readers, I encourage you to pass my blog onto others so that I can fulfill my goal.
Jenni
"Imagine... Here you are, on the high peak of a mountain. You can choose to wing your way toward the clouds, or you can simply walk the usual, ordinary paths that lead to the valley below. Which choice will you make-the well-worn paths or rising above it all? Beautiful things await you if you can reach the heights."
-George Sand
On the way to school today I shared my story with the bus driver. I told him about my accident, talked about my passion of being a motivational speaker, and shared other personal information to him. When I got off the bus to go into the school, he told me that I had been an inspiration to him today. It always feels good to hear those words. When I got inside the door I stopped at a table to look at some pictures of some people who had studied abroad in Italy. What I thought was interesting was that I ended up sharing my story again to the two people sitting behind the table. They were very nice and asked many questions, which I was happy to answer. Before I left, the woman told me thank you for sharing my story and wished me luck. She told me it was nice to hear what I had to say. These moments are why I keep going.
I don't mind sharing my story with others. Actually, I quite enjoy answering any questions they have to ask even if they're personal and hearing their comments and reactions. I would rather have people ask questions than stare and wonder. One of my goals in life is to inspire as many people as possible. For all of you regular readers, I encourage you to pass my blog onto others so that I can fulfill my goal.
Jenni
"Imagine... Here you are, on the high peak of a mountain. You can choose to wing your way toward the clouds, or you can simply walk the usual, ordinary paths that lead to the valley below. Which choice will you make-the well-worn paths or rising above it all? Beautiful things await you if you can reach the heights."
-George Sand
Wednesday, February 18, 2009
A Reminder for All
12 Ways to Keep Smiling
Hold on to your dreams, and never let them go.
Show the rest of the world how wonderful you are!
Give circumstances a chance, and give others the benefit of the doubt.
Wish on a star that shines in your sky.
Take on your problems one by one and work things out.
Let loose the sparkle and spirit that you sometimes try to hide.
Stay in touch with those who touch your life with love.
Look on the bright side and don't let adversity keep you from winning.
Be yourself, because you are filled with special qualities that have brought you this far and that will always see you through.
Keep your spirits up.
Make your heart happy, and let it reflect on everything you do!
-Douglas Pagels
I came across this in a book I have. I thought it was quite appropriate for my blog. I try to do these things daily anyways, and thought others may need help in finding a way to keep smiling.
Jenni
Hold on to your dreams, and never let them go.
Show the rest of the world how wonderful you are!
Give circumstances a chance, and give others the benefit of the doubt.
Wish on a star that shines in your sky.
Take on your problems one by one and work things out.
Let loose the sparkle and spirit that you sometimes try to hide.
Stay in touch with those who touch your life with love.
Look on the bright side and don't let adversity keep you from winning.
Be yourself, because you are filled with special qualities that have brought you this far and that will always see you through.
Keep your spirits up.
Make your heart happy, and let it reflect on everything you do!
-Douglas Pagels
I came across this in a book I have. I thought it was quite appropriate for my blog. I try to do these things daily anyways, and thought others may need help in finding a way to keep smiling.
Jenni
Sunday, February 15, 2009
My Weekend Entertainment
My entertainment this weekend was feeding the squirrels in my backyard. I got a bowl of sunflower seeds and mixed them with peanut butter and a bowl of corn together for them. I'm not a big fan of squirrels, I just like to watch them eat and fight over the food. It's been more than 24 hours and they are still eating. I had to refill the sunflower seed bowl this morning because it was completely empty. One of the gray squirrels is extremely fat and dominant over all of the other ones. Maybe I'm feeding them too much. Oh well its fun to do.Jenni
Saturday, February 14, 2009
Online Puzzle
I found this puzzle on someone else's blog. I thought it was cool and decided to share it with all of you. I don't know how someone put it together in 57 seconds but it took me about 12 minutes by my direction to the nurse. If you just click on the puzzle it will take you to a new window and you can reassemble it by moving the pieces to the correct place. It is by JigZone. Good luck!
Jenni
Jenni
Thursday, February 12, 2009
Why I Get Botox
I'm wrinkly, why else? Just kidding. Turns out Botox is used for more than just cosmetic reasons. It is injected into tight muscles throughout the body to loosen them and relieve pain. I use Botox for just that reason. Because of my injury and the fact that I can't move my muscles, I get extremely tight in my neck and back and it's usually associated with pain. Botox is one way that I am able to relieve pain and loosen my muscles. The other ways are physical therapy and massage therapy.
I get Botox injections every three months at Gillette Children's Hospital in St. Paul. Some of the places that they have injected it into are my occipitals, neck, pectoral muscles (major and minor), upper back and shoulders (specifically my upper trapezius and rhomboids), hip flexors, latissimus dorsi, and my left calf and foot. Don't worry if you don't know all of these muscles, I didn't either until I started getting injections in them. I find that Botox is very helpful and I notice a difference just two days after getting it.
Jenni
I get Botox injections every three months at Gillette Children's Hospital in St. Paul. Some of the places that they have injected it into are my occipitals, neck, pectoral muscles (major and minor), upper back and shoulders (specifically my upper trapezius and rhomboids), hip flexors, latissimus dorsi, and my left calf and foot. Don't worry if you don't know all of these muscles, I didn't either until I started getting injections in them. I find that Botox is very helpful and I notice a difference just two days after getting it.
Jenni
Wednesday, February 11, 2009
A Moment Among Many
A Moment Among Many
As I lay there staring at the ceiling, listening to machines beeping and people screaming, I was worried that I may never be where I was before. I had made it through this situation, and hoped that nothing like it would ever cross my path again. Laying there made me realize that there's more to life than just going around pretending to be the one person you're not. It made me think about my past actions, and the person that I have now become. I desperately wanted to realize who I was in this world, where I fit in, and why this had happened to me.
Without any warning it me at 1000 mph. Confusion blocked my every thought, as that one event took control. It was unstoppable, and it was hard to handle. The fear, pain, uncertainty, feeling of loss, desperation; whatever that one or many emotions might have been, I held onto them, only until it was way too hard to fight, then I let others into my life to help handle.
I've many times heard of the mind and its mysterious ways. Thoughts thicken like fog until the back of the eyes go blind. Fear sets in, and lets the body know how far it can push itself before it breaks down in heartache. I know for this feeling has covered me like a thick afghan. Trembles start like a ghost was seen, and the only thing left to do is listen and hope for peace.
The above words explain my feelings after my accident. I wrote it a while ago and thought it was a good time to post it.
If I knew then what I know now, I would have dealt with my accident a different way. I now know that it is okay to grieve. It is normal to go through that process. Every emotion that I felt at the time I tucked away in the back of my head thinking that these feelings weren't normal. I put a smile on my face and dealt with the life-changing event with hope and happiness. I'm glad I did and it's okay to do, but now I am going through the grieving process that I should've gone through from the beginning. It snuck up on me, and until now I didn't know what I was feeling.
I see a therapist a couple of times a month. I just want to stress the importance of being able to talk to someone other than those close to you. Sometimes when a person talks to people that are regularly involved in their lives, those people tend to take the problems on themselves; try to fix them instead of just listening. I am glad that I have someone else to talk to who can help me figure out the emotions and feelings that I'm having. It helps to know that these are normal feelings and that I'm not weird or something for feeling the way I do.
It is difficult to go through something as traumatic and life changing as I have. I am a happy person and I am accepting of what has happened to me. I do have feelings of loss sometimes, and there are days that they interfere with what my daily routine. I may lose sleep or be depressed at times. The grieving process that I'm going through right now involves those feelings of loss and hopelessness. I know these feelings are normal and through therapy I will be back on track soon. This doesn't mean that I'm not able to function.
Jenni
As I lay there staring at the ceiling, listening to machines beeping and people screaming, I was worried that I may never be where I was before. I had made it through this situation, and hoped that nothing like it would ever cross my path again. Laying there made me realize that there's more to life than just going around pretending to be the one person you're not. It made me think about my past actions, and the person that I have now become. I desperately wanted to realize who I was in this world, where I fit in, and why this had happened to me.
Without any warning it me at 1000 mph. Confusion blocked my every thought, as that one event took control. It was unstoppable, and it was hard to handle. The fear, pain, uncertainty, feeling of loss, desperation; whatever that one or many emotions might have been, I held onto them, only until it was way too hard to fight, then I let others into my life to help handle.
I've many times heard of the mind and its mysterious ways. Thoughts thicken like fog until the back of the eyes go blind. Fear sets in, and lets the body know how far it can push itself before it breaks down in heartache. I know for this feeling has covered me like a thick afghan. Trembles start like a ghost was seen, and the only thing left to do is listen and hope for peace.
The above words explain my feelings after my accident. I wrote it a while ago and thought it was a good time to post it.
If I knew then what I know now, I would have dealt with my accident a different way. I now know that it is okay to grieve. It is normal to go through that process. Every emotion that I felt at the time I tucked away in the back of my head thinking that these feelings weren't normal. I put a smile on my face and dealt with the life-changing event with hope and happiness. I'm glad I did and it's okay to do, but now I am going through the grieving process that I should've gone through from the beginning. It snuck up on me, and until now I didn't know what I was feeling.
I see a therapist a couple of times a month. I just want to stress the importance of being able to talk to someone other than those close to you. Sometimes when a person talks to people that are regularly involved in their lives, those people tend to take the problems on themselves; try to fix them instead of just listening. I am glad that I have someone else to talk to who can help me figure out the emotions and feelings that I'm having. It helps to know that these are normal feelings and that I'm not weird or something for feeling the way I do.
It is difficult to go through something as traumatic and life changing as I have. I am a happy person and I am accepting of what has happened to me. I do have feelings of loss sometimes, and there are days that they interfere with what my daily routine. I may lose sleep or be depressed at times. The grieving process that I'm going through right now involves those feelings of loss and hopelessness. I know these feelings are normal and through therapy I will be back on track soon. This doesn't mean that I'm not able to function.
Jenni
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