Choices in Life

Life is made up of an endless number of choices. Most decisions, such as what you’ll eat for the day, are small and only slightly influential. It’s the big decisions-the ones that will change your life indefinitely-that are difficult to make. Every choice we choose can impact our life either in a good or bad way, it helps form us to find out who we are to ourselves and to other people.

When thinking about the occasions that I had to make big decisions, it was after my accident. The number of times which I had a hard time accepting my new normal was less than a handful. It helped that I had support from friends and family. I also had a positive thinking that things were going to be okay despite what happened to me. 

One occasion in which I had a difficult time was when I said no to getting out of bed for a few days in a row. I just wanted to not deal with all the "stuff" that I normally do every day. It took my mom to literally get me out of bed, despite me saying no, for me to realize how important it is for my mind and body to be in different positions. It was after that where I told myself that from then on, I was continually going to have to make decisions, good or bad, and choose how I wanted to live my life.

Also, since I went back to school the year after my accident, I was forced to be around a bunch of people, including the same peers as before. It did make it hard at times to adjust, but I would always tell myself that I'm in it for the long run, even if I didn't always believe it at the time. It helped me cope with those difficult situations and breakdowns. I know not everybody in this situation has the same feelings or ability to adjust their thinking based on what others tell them or what they tell themselves. 

As far as what I would tell someone in my shoes, I would start off by asking the question "what motivates you to get out of bed every day?” Maybe it would get people thinking about their life and what they are thankful for. We all have choices in our lives, and I think the biggest one of all is whether to walk away or try harder.

Jenni

“Choice is the most powerful tool we have. Everything boils down to choice. We exist in a field of infinite possibilities. Every choice that we make shuts an infinite number of doors and opens a number of infinite doors. At any point we can change the direction of our lives by a simple choice. It is all in our hands, our hearts, and our minds.” -Anonymous

Hello 2021

This year so far started off a little rough for me. About a week and ½ ago during physical therapy I re-injured my left knee. I wrote a post last year where I stated having pain in that knee starting in 2018. I got an MRI on it in January 2019 and found out I tore my MCL. Although it healed, I was still having slight pain off and on, so I’ve been unable to stand. Injuring it again has caused me even more pain, and I’ve had to start wearing my knee brace again.

Also, I ended up developing a respiratory infection and got on some antibiotics this past week. I haven’t had one for quite a while, so I was surprised when I started feeling signs of it. For me, my secretions get thicker and discolored, I require oxygen (normally I’m on room air) and I need to be suctioned more frequently. Being on antibiotics messes with my body, and I end up having more problems that I don’t need.

The other hard thing is that since I need to be careful because of COVID, I haven’t been going out to places like usual. It doesn’t help that it’s January, cold outside, and the streets are full of snow so I can’t take Brody for a walk. Good news, I started up my Bible study group on Wednesday and that’s been keeping me busy. My other one starts this Monday.

Hopefully by next month everything will start to go uphill and not be so much of a downer. I know God doesn’t give me challenges in which I cannot handle. Even though He gives me tests every so often, I remain positive knowing that I am still here for reason!

Jenni