I’m still recovering from my spiral fracture on my right leg. I have gone to the orthopedic doctor three times so far since it happened. The first appointment was an x-ray and to put my cast on, then they wanted me to return in two weeks. The second one they cut my cast off, took an x-ray and said it needed a few more weeks. So, they put another cast on and wanted me to come back in three weeks. When I did, they took my cast off and took another x-ray, and determined it hadn’t healed at all from when I first fractured it.
They put a cast on again and told me to come back in another 3 ½ weeks. It’s been a little over a week since then, so I’m not sure what to think when the next appointment comes around. Hopefully it’s healed at least some, because the next option is to put pins in to hold it together, so it heals faster. I’m not looking forward to that, if that’s the case. I’ve been modifying ABLE avoiding exercises that use my legs.
I also have been using a lift to get me out and back in my chair instead of manual transfers. When I first started, and they told me they were going to do a manual transfer, I was scared. I’d never transferred that way before I have only used a lift. It was going good until my last two injuries on my legs (bursitis in my right knee, and the spiral fracture I’m still healing from.) Using a lift does take longer than manual transfers, although it’s a safety route.
I’m praying for no more injuries! Other than ABLE, I’ve been getting outside as much as possible. Unfortunately, Brody isn’t feeling all that great. He wasn’t eating well for a few days and wouldn’t let anyone get close to his mouth. He went into the vet to get his teeth looked at. They said he has a lot of tartar, gingivitis, a loose tooth, cracked teeth etc. So, because of his bad teeth. In September going to have surgery and have multiple teeth pulled along with a deep clean. We’ve now been soaking his food in water, and he’s been loving that.
Now when I take him out for walks, he doesn’t like to walk the whole way. When he stops going and just looks at me, I put him on my lap. He lays down and then I go as far as I want! Although, the temperature outside has been quite warm and humid lately. It’s hard to go too far and I try to stick to the shade, so I don’t get to warm. That’s one thing that’s difficult about being a quad; when it’s cold I’m cold and when it’s hot I’m hot.
Since we are approaching August, usually temperature in Minnesota only gets warmer. My favorite time of year is fall, not just because of the weather being cooler, but the leaf color changes are nice to look at. My sister and niece, Avery have birthdays this month. I always look forward to buying things for other people, especially for holidays.
As I said before, I've been on a binge of writing poems. I write one almost every day, mostly for contests on the site: All Poetry you can check out all the poems I've written by clicking on the link before this. Although others I've just posted for people to read. I thought I would share more of what I've written within the past couple months.
Feelings of Hope
Letting my emotions flow within my veins,
like water seeping through cracks in wood.
Enlightening me to share my sense of calm
with others until dawn meets the horizon.
Silence echoes across open land in sight,
while my mind reaches a height of stillness.
Beneath my feet feeling single grains of sand
navigating their way through open valleys.
The wind finally rests as thoughts of healing
begin to enter the realm surrounding my being.
Change
Within a moments time,
my body changed like a
caterpillar transforming
into a striking butterfly.
Life throws curveballs
letting me know how much
it can push itself, until
my breaking point. For the
instances that I am lonely
are far too many to count.
There are times in my past
where I felt like giving up,
because it’s easier than dealing
with being paralyzed from the
neck down, on a ventilator.
Like a puzzle, I just pick up
pieces of my broken body,
slowly putting them back
together. Realizing that my time
here on earth is worth living
to its fullest. Despite my troubles
where I’ve slipped and fell, the
path to my destination is clear.
My spirit flickers a faint light,
like a candle in a slight wind.
Since my near-death experience,
I now realize that the loneliness
within my mind has dwindled.
Changing pages has given
me a chance to gain confidence,
preserving a future to survive.
By stepping out from behind the
shadows, I grant myself permission
to share my story with others.
Breathe In
Within two decades of moments lies dangerous
thoughts of reacting to a future unknown
Emotional insides twist with anticipation as feelings
inside my paralyzed body seize on-demand
Affecting my ability to move amongst beings
as every effort beyond has a cause with no feeling
Showing loneliness upon difficult times of struggle
like being on a ship with no lifeboat aboard
In spite unimaginable living in shadows of pain
stricken underneath me like light turning to dark
I now realize my past hatred of a time troubled accident
has dissipated into the air I breathe through my vent
Reminding me of myself despite my tight grasp
binding down at this moment however looking afar
What I’ve now become although whom I will be later
surrounding happiness above distant thunder clouds
Springtime Wonders
Blue sky shows above as the rays of sun shines on my face
feelings of glow as the wind whispers in my ear ever
flowing through the trees as the next season appears
all around as soothing scents of lilacs, hyacinths, and daffodils
start to grow in the ground and buds began showing
it is as if the world is telling me to be silent
while the red cardinals flyby singing to each other
with their sweet sounds of whistles flow amongst
my shoulders become relaxed as I feel a sense of calm
through the change of seasons while white winter wonderland
begins slowly disappearing as the temperature raises
melting the snow away beginning to showcase spring
blades of grass poking through the old crackled dried up
dead brown leaves laying in a bed below from last fall
all seasons showing their stories right in front of my blue eyes
the smell of petrichor produced by wet rocks after
raindrops fizzing as they splashed down caring an aroma
fills the air which makes me sneeze because of allergies
although the light breeze slowly floats through leading it away
while new spotted white fawns begin to show themselves
their mothers protecting them when strangers come near
showing them the ways around how their life is supposed to be
while dad with pointed racks of antlers watches for predators
that come near as the snow-covered water frozen from
low temperatures, starts to melt opening-up as water begins
flowing making space for green mallards and geese finding
their mates, other animals able to drink swiftly as the sun gets higher
opening sky as its warming the nature in every corner
the crickets make their calling, the bees start buzzing
the black spotted red ladybugs land on my arm tickling me
